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Possibly most difficult thing a person can achieve in life is to defeat their heart with their mind. I doubt there is one person having read this that at some point has not had to bare the feeling of struggle between the heart weighted with lead emotion and the minds cold logic you know to be true. Your mind filled with undeniable logic is equally countered by the crushing emotional weight of the heart. Even against the most solid reasoning, the blind urging of the soul will attempt to trump the mind. For many this situation is typically illustrated by relations with the other sex, though this is a common but narrow example. Consider this instead, a mouse that continually makes it’s way into the pantry to eat your last packet of oreos, would commonly provoke that instantaneous irritation that wishes an end to the existence of that mouse. However if it ever actually came to the point where you held that small delicate mouse in your hands and truly possessed the power to make that irreversible decision, what would you choose?

With only a logic to set my moral compass the choice would be clear and simple and many would argue that this cold certainty is the way all decisions should be made. But by denying the pressure we feel on our heart when faced with such decisions we are denying the very things that make us more than the sum of our molecular structure.

Without sounding too cliché I will say that through life we are faced with moments that will weaken us or through the correct perspective make us stronger. When I first began to encounter cripplingly strong emotions I considered it a weakness, something that must be controlled and was pathetic for it to control me. As i considered compromising this opinion a form of weakness for a long time I was reluctant to considered that constant prodding of a single, pivotal thought.

Perhaps emotional progression is not ment to be supressed, perhaps i am ment feel it completely, understand it thoroughly and incorporate it into my understanding and perspective of a given situation. Perhaps by gaining the ability to understand our feelings in a given circumstances we will possess far more power and understanding than logic could ever possess alone. With this uncertain apiffany I will persevere the path of painful understanding in place of cold suppression of humanity.